I was looking for books on Carl Jung and his works when I came across this book "Man's Search for Meaning". Truthfully I was about to put this book back down, but the idea of finding meaning in such intense suffering intrigued me so I decided to read it and I am glad I did.

To find meaning in despair...to find meaning in suffering...that is hard. But this book has given me the tools to question myself, something tangible for me to hold and use rather than the useless frustration of my limitations and my inability to order the thoughts and feelings I have.

I do not presume to have suffered more than the author of this book has suffered, nor do I wish to belittle his experiences by saying that I know what he went through... because that is impossible for someone like me, who has lived a life of little worries. But I wish to say Thank You, for it is with his suffering that he has gleaned such wisdom, and it is his wisdom that has allowed me to glimpse what knowledge I have gained from my own trials.

( My reflection on what I've been through and what I've learnt... )

Thank you for reading. Amitabha, God Bless You.

Dragon frustrated me so I avoided this doodle until I felt well enough to attempt to straighten him out. 9_9 And yes it took me almost 2 months to get my ass back in gear for this.

( Ahaha I finally got back to the zodiac again )

I've been sneezing a lot recently, so I decided to make my immune system stronger by drowning myself in Vitamin C! I've bought Orange-flavored Cod Liver Oil, Orange Juice with no Added sugar, and two different kinds of Vit-C supplements... I think I'm starting to turn orange...

I wanted to design a seifuku that was actually a jacket...or a jacket that looks like a seifuku...



Did I succeed? ~ω~; I think it still needs refining but it is an interesting idea...

Gah I hate the weather!! It rains at night so I close my windows and by morning it is sunny and humid so I melt and DIE. My dogs are perpetually panting and ARGH I just wish it would rain in the morning and stay dry at night.

But moving on... after listening to Persona 4's OST day and night my need to draw uniforms has finally took a hold of me and somehow this popped out! Fairly fast too! With minimal sweating and ARRGGGHHH HEADACHE on my part.


Pebbles in Uniform A!

I guess it's about time I worked on my next avatar... "OTL"!! I'm dying from this HEAT!!

Today I just saw some asshole pull down the pants of this homeless guy. The asshole wasn't even at a age where his immaturity could passably excuse his WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU-ness! The homeless old guy was just minding his own business, sorting the little portable luggage he always had with him when this 40+ year old asshole just comes and pulls down his pants and walks off laughing to shake some other guy's hand while the homeless guy screamed in frustration.

...If only I was more alert I would have noticed what he had done and I would have confronted that asshole...but by the time I realized what had happened he had walked off like he had done nothing worth apologizing for.

Why? Is it funny? Is it amusing? I can't understand anyone who would take joy in doing such things. What in the world can make a person so screwed up that they can do such things to someone who isn't even in their way, someone who hasn't even done anything to deserve that and laugh it off like a joke.

It's Polka's turn!

( Sunnnyyy time! )

Goddamnit I love THIS MAN! He has magic hands!!

( Pebbles and Polka...as guys...AGAIN. haha )

Picked up a book in the library on Machiavelli on a whim and MAN this guy is sharp. I've always had the assumption that being a Machiavelli was a bad thing and nothing really changed my impression...after all I live in S.E.A! Who the hell uses Machiavelli in a normal conversation here?! All you'd get are blank looks and "wah....so you think you are a banana (A white person in yellow skin) huh?"

But this guy is awesome! His deductions on the human nature and his realistic way of thinking! So unlike many of the writers and philosophers whose religious leanings colour their words! His foresight and his way of shooting right to the heart of the issue! NNGH! No wonder Christians call him Satan!

Been playing Persona 4 and damn but this is even better than Final Fantasy! ...I tend not to fall for the loli-chars but ♥Nanako-chan!!!♥ totally is the cherry on the cake! Not to mention Yosuke and [SPOILER] and [SPOILER] but grahhhh I just love all the characters! Even the baddies (not Mitsuo though.)!

Squeenix is great with making shiny stuff but you don't really feel the oomph that Atlus makes with their awesome characterizations. Even the silent protagonist actually feels like a character as opposed to a digital meat puppet with a really nice ass!

So yeah it is kind of obvious what distracted me from my quest huh? Haha... I'll get back to the zodiac soon.........I think.

I love the Rabbit year! Because Helly is born in it! XDD RABBITS ARE SUCH LOVELY PEOPLE!! ♥

( WABBIT! .ω. )

Yesterday while I was walking around the house a lizard suddenly fell from the ceiling! Just 5cm away from my head! It made a wet *plop* sound! I made a °.° face and looked up at the ceiling...when I looked down it had...VANISHED! XD My dad's girlfriend told me I should buy a lottery ticket if it had fallen on my head...

Almost a month between this post and the previous! But I'm back...and that counts for something!

( The second in the zodiac series~ ♥ )

Wasn't feeling too well yesterday, was drenched in rain and stayed out the whole day, when I came home all I wanted to do was sleep so I didn't draw anything.

So I'll do a pic earlier today.

( Polka and Pebbles )

I guess I need better vitamins...my body's resistance is really lousy....

I'm late!! But I managed to finish a pic!! I feel accomplished!!

( TEEHEE )

I met two pretty little kitties today...and my right hand has been throughly cat-abused TωT KITTIES WHY DO YOU HATE MEEEEE???? I was wearing my thick hoodie and the kitty had a great time poking holes in my sleeve. The second kitty was sitting on a keychain machine...and when I put my face near her she gave me a bitch slap ≧⊿≦ KITTIES DON'T HATE MEEEE!!!

I just realized the irony in me drawing kitty-whacking when I've just been whacked by two kitties in a day...=皿= I GUESS THIS IS FATE.

..kinda woozy today, I can't take the cold....

The Merlion is Singapore's national symbol btw, LOL what are the chances of this happening?

Well recently I've managed to pass my driving's test on my FIRST TRY!! *clap clap* But my dad's cranky old car scares me... it is so...loose and jerky I almost crashed it 3 times already and by the grace of whatever it is up there the worse it suffered was a tiny little dent on its boot.

THIS IS WHAT I LOOK LIKE WHEN I DRIVE --> EVERYTHING SCARES ME, I AM IN A CONSTANT STATE OF FEAR!!! I just hope that I'll get a grip and slap myself silly before I end up killing myself out of stupidity...

ANYWAY! On to the doodle of the day!!
( Ice...fairy? )

I have resolved to draw a pic a day and post it regardless!

...yes I am SERIOUS about this! ...at least for a few days...I think For those who doubt me I shall show you...!!! I HAVE PUT MY SERIOUS FACE ON!!

( To show you how serious I am...I will post a picture beneath this CUT! )

Catchy isn't it? :D

Psst, its actually a parody of this NEWS CM

Just a peek at some of the stuff I've been working on XD;; Including Helly's birthday piece...which I did not forget about!! XD

( Peek a boo!! WARNING: One of these isn't safe for work!! )